.......notes on a marvelous, mysterious universe... BLOG ? Skin Time Answers Sudoku Witches Myspace ..... Skin Skin is really really fascinating Stand in the shower with the water cascading down your skin... notice how tiny droplets form, how waterproof we seem, how neatly contained we are - our skin holding all our guts together. It expands to cover us... stretchy but not too stretchy so we spill out. Skin appears quite thick, at least mine appears to be around my tummy and legs (“appearing” thus I suppose by virtue of added chunky blubber), except for my hands and wrists where the skin is so thin it’s transparent... where you can see greeny-blue vines of interweaving veins reaching up through my fingers, and thin skin sheathing more exposed, too-close-to-the-surface knuckles and other vulnerable bones. I love my skin... the smooth bits (face cheeks, butt cheeks and under the forearm), the rough bits (heels... thick so I can run barefoot). I love how the skin lives its own existence... it responds in so many ways ... can change colour, can raise bumps of chills or joy revealing stimulus... expanding, contracting, sweating.... breathing, absorbing.... Having skin means we can enjoy one of lifes greatest indulgences.... that particular way of being tickled.... smooth slow strokes of light fingertips. Thinking in terms of definition of self... as I feel my spirit self I am inside and not “of” this skin... although I am the epidermis too ... I am in and around my innards as well, but it computes more neatly to imagine not being spaces between spaces between spaces so much as to think of being a ghost enclosed... an ether-egg in a hide bag... Time Time is a real trick, a balancing act, a dissappearing act, a route chosen, a dance,a frenzy, hot tea in early morning sunshine curled up in a soft chair appreciating a new day. Although my calendar informs me it has been (X) years since I came here to (insert name of empire) parts of me refuse to believe it has been that long. What have I been doing and where am I in life-path-truth searching-creative- growth-metaphysical-categorical terms? I typed up a big chart of days and months (okay...a "calendar" if you will) and filled in the things I'd done in those months-adding-up-to-years. And I must say it made me feel better. I thought I'd just been "wasting" time, when in actuality I have been "doing" and "seeing" things and, what seems to be the important part here, is that I seem to have been busy "being". Being myself. What have I achieved? Achievement... success... what are these? What is important? Who am I and why am I even writing this? Am I talking to someone or simply attempting to justify my existence? Is this some statement or part of my thought-self existing seperately in hyperspace? Is this then timeless? Who will stumble on this and how will they process it? Will it spur action? Does it present more questions? Or does someone out there have answers? If you have answers let them be heard? end of current thought Answers I don't really think anyone has the answers Anyway...absolutes are completely absurd. Sudoku I was on a plane the other day and some puzzle pusher showed me my first sudoku puzzle. Now I am totally hooked. I came home and went to this website www.websudoku.com where they have like billions and billions of sudoku puzzles. I am NOT kidding! They add 8 million per month or something uncomprehendable. Anyway... I do like five a day day .My brain is hurting from usage. What's bad though, is that I got through a bunch of easy ones so I moved on to the meduim level, and when I had only completed two of those I went straight on to hard. Well, let me tell you it became impossible... just like that. I managed to get part of the way, but I just think that really as far as the"hard" level goes I am missing some basic component of understanding. Something that seperates me - humble artiste - from, say, a geneticist. That's not to say that artistes can't be great with logic, and it does take all sorts to make a world and yes yes yes it's wrong to categorise but... ... okay, so I moved on back to "medium". Which I think says that I would rather, at this stage, feed the addiction by completing many sudoku per day than have the frustration of incompleteness or failure by trying to be smarter than I actually are. Witches Witches need their hexercise Myspace I now have a myspace page which I am really stoked about. There has been so much more action there at that page in the last few months than the whole time I've been here at my own complete and "official" site that I am feeling a little obsolete here. Myspace just makes me feel so... connected to the whole world!!... Plus now I have all these really cool friends... like for instance Sir Paul McCartney. It was nice of him to agree to be my friend. I wish George were still with uz... TM